Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Last night, I listened to my daughter playing music ALL NIGHT LONG. She found the musical mobile that we used in her crib when she was a baby. She didn't really care about the little stuffed animals that rotated, but she loved the musical part of it. I think we made a mistake by putting it in bed with her last night, because then she played it over and over, instead of sleeping. But while I was listening to this music over our monitor all night, I realized how far we have come, since the days we used that mobile in her crib. She was so young then, maybe 3-4 months old and my mother was at the end of her illness. It has been a little over 1 1/2 years since those days, and we have traveled a very long distance to be where we are today. Here's the obligatory cute baby picture from those days: Our lives have settled down, and Charlie and I are both working to bring our dreams and goals to fruition. I've been having all these thoughts floating through my head about goals and dreams and what the universe is trying to tell me, thanks to the ecourse I'm taking. I've know for a while now that I wasn't where I needed to be in my life, as far as my creative life goes anyway. I can physically feel it when I am not in the proper place. I get sluggish and I don't sleep well and I feel like there is a huge rubber band around my chest that prevents me from opening up and breathing deeply. So one of my goals in taking this ecourse was to get me back on track, creatively, and bring me back into line with what the universe is telling me. I have heard the inner whispers, but I just couldn't do much about them for a while. Now I am. I am starting on my creative journey and I plan on listening to those whispers from now on. I have finally realized that I am a happier person when I do, and that means I am a better mother and wife, as well! By taking care of me, I will be better able to take care of my daughter and maybe, just maybe, I can show her what it is like to follow your dreams. I am sure this is just one of many lessons I will learn along the way, and I hope that my journey never ends, and that I will continue to learn along the way.