Friday, January 1, 2010

Passport Demons win

Well, the final blow came on Dec. 30th at just minutes before 5:00 pm. The US Passport department was suddenly requiring that they have my original, long form birth certificate. Why? I don't know. Maybe it was that I married 10 years ago (even though I changed my name and did everything the official way, with documents and all), and had my passport amended with my new name. Or maybe it is due to the new security measures, (thank you, would-be terrorists) that is making them really crack down hard on things. I don't know. But what I do know is that this would have eaten 2 or 3 more days into a 4 day trip and it just wasn't worth it to me. What I FINALLY realized is that something, or somebody, was telling me to keep my arse here! I normally am pretty aware of signs like this, but we just kept pushing and pushing. I can't help but wonder why I am supposed to be here for New Years, but this is where I am. Maybe we would have gotten really sick or something bad would have happened in Costa Rica, but everything is just fine, here at home. I've gotten a chance to put away some Christmas stuff, I went to the gym yesterday, and I even managed to get in the studio for a bit! 2008 and 2009 were such traumatic years for us, that I am wishing for a nice, smooth, easy and relaxed 2010. I'm looking forward to a nice routine, including healthy food, exercise, creativity, and raising our little girl. That sounds just lovely to me right now! One thing I want to look into, is perhaps meditation. I want to learn how to quiet my mind, and restore peace to my center. I'm not sure how I'm going to do this, but that a direction I want to move in. Wish me luck!


  1. Peace is at the top of my 2010 agenda, as well! :D Outer chaos has made me put a lot of energy into keeping my inner stability, too. Whew!

    Steps I've learned over the decades: Inner peace --> 1) know yourself thoroughly, 2) understand why you are as you are, 3) accept the reality of who you are at present, including the parts that you don't care for, 4) work to change the parts that you don't like.

    Remind yourself as you go through the steps that you are working on you (each step can take a lot of soul-searching, ergo time). Leave the outside world (as much as possible), outside. ...As in, for example, you can love and help someone without letting their problem become yours.

    Happy New Year, Kelly!!

  2. Thanks Beth. Fine words to live by. I am going to remember that each morning as I drink my coffee... well, I'm going to try anyway. Maybe that will set my mindset for the day. I know you have your hands full too, so you understand completely. Thank you so much!